Wow, two weeks on this path. I am feeling the desire to stop and stay somewhere for a little while BUT I also feel the pull to keep exploring.
I was painting last night, very late, and a face came out on my canvas. Someone I love in this lifetime... that has never happened before. Crazy cool! Just goes to show how connected I am with him. But... that's not what I want to talk about today.
I want to talk about stories.
Our minds are SO good at making up stories. That's what I did with my guy, I didn't hear from him so my mind went wild... creating non-truths and REALLY freaking me out.
9 times out of 10, there's nothing wrong, yet we start panicking (that was the case this week). We start thinking about all the things, looking for the wrongs done to us, creating the idea of what is "really" going on and convincing ourselves that this is truth.
I say NO MORE! No more to expectations (we should have no expectation of another human - except that they will do what they say they'll do...but there's exceptions here as well). No more judgment (that one I dropped last year, although it does occasionally rear its ugly head... especially to myself). No more creating stories in the silence. No more doing things how I've always done them. You can't expect different results if you're still doing things the way you've always done them.
No more stinkin' thinkin', as my mentor Natasha says.
What is real? What can you see, touch, smell, hear RIGHT NOW?
When you feel your mind running out of control, recognize what is happening. Acknowledge it WITHOUT judgement - the thing, or thought, is not good or bad, it just is. And look for the lesson. Then release and move on. Period.
I learned a valuable lesson (several actually) in the silence and heartache of the last few days. I am keeping those to myself at the moment because I am still gaining clarity in understanding what happened in my soul. But...I am SO grateful for the pain I felt. The pain is where we have breakthroughs IF we are looking. And now it has been released.
However, because I was deep in healing, I really didn't explore Nashville Indiana. So, I will have to come back here someday. I have North Carolina booked today... back on the road... I ask myself (my higher self, the Universe, my light team)... "where would you have me go today? What would you have me do. What would you have me say, and to whom?"
I'm open to guidance. Are you?
Love you all! Have a beautiful day!
I had a dream that I was traveling all over the world. In less than 6 months, I sold almost everything I own...bought a Toy Hauler (the "garage" is my art studio) and am now living wherever, whenever...just me, my art, and my cats.