Days 110 - 113
We are all connected, each and every one of us. Your actions affect people (some that you may never even meet).
Will you bring love to this existence, or pain? It is your choice.
I allow my existence to be guided by love, as much as I am capable. Guided by the universe. I have no idea what is next for us, and that is ok. All that matters is now.
I will continue to take inspired action. This week I began sharing my Words Matter exhibit online again. Speaking stories of hope from the "warriors" and stories of pain from the lost.
When I first launched the exhibit, a woman came to the opening. She told me she had gotten online to research "clean" ways to end her life. But as she scrolled, a notification from FB of an event near her popped up. My event.
You truly never know the extent of the ripples you make.
This week has been one of work... much work on the part time teaching job that I hold but also some painting, some planning and as always... some healing.
As I share the stories of each portrait I have drawn, more people reach out wishing to have a loved one added to the exhibit. There are 31 completed portraits traveling with me. 2 on my drawing boards - one of which is me.
The difference between when I first shared these stories and now?
Now I know who I truly am and why I am here.
Now I know I love this life.
Now I know I could never go back to that place of deepest darkness.
I had to make the choice. No one else was capable of getting me out of that pit, I had to do it myself.
It was my decision to read books to help me heal.
My decision to reach out to healers and spiritual teachers.
My decision to get out of a toxic relationship (that I knew from the very first date would devastate me but I ignored it and lost myself for 20 years).
My decision to express every feeling, every thought.
My decision to accept and love myself... even the shadows.
My decision to get up and watch the sun rise.
My decision to sell my house, buy an RV and travel.
It was my decision to live.
To live a life of no judgment.
To live a life of love, joy and peace because that, my friends, is all that matters.
This moment, right now. The past got you to where you are. Hopefully you've learned lessons to take with you into now. But other than those lessons, the past doesn't matter. The future doesn't matter.
We only have right now.
So go live. Go love. Go find joy. It's there... you just have to make the decision to see it.
Watch the sun set and rise. Each day you can make the decision to release your burdens and awake renewed, full of gratitude and grace. We watched a magical sun set last night, a dolphin and a sea turtle even swam up to say hello as we stood holding each other on the pier. As a friend told me, we exude an energy of pure love... so it is no surprise a dolphin would want to be near. I have never experienced this feeling before. It is as magical as each sun set and rise that we see together. I can't imagine being anywhere else... except here, now.
Love you all! Have a beautiful day!
I had a dream that I was traveling all over the world. In less than 6 months, I sold almost everything I own...bought a Toy Hauler (the "garage" is my art studio) and am now living wherever, whenever...just me, my art, and my cats.