January 14th, 2020
Follow up on the zen... oh boy did I have to practice it. The evening started out just fine after I wrote the last blog...we went and watched the sunset before going to get groceries; but, we had to get gas first.
My truck is diesel fueled... there's a station up the road from us. We go there and their pumps aren't working (this is after the attendant says "diesel should work"). Jordan goes inside because we're thinking that maybe if we pay with cash it'll function (their credit card machine was down earlier in the day) but it's no luck. We're on empty... the cashier says (in broken English) that we can fuel up at the station further up the road. Jordan emphasized that we need diesel, she said yes. So off we go.
Nope, no diesel. Definitely not feeling zen. After an hour since we left the sunset, we find a diesel station (yes, that's using Google after that cashier directed us wrong).
At this point, I'm hangry. Not zen at all. We still needed to go grocery shopping before we could eat dinner.
Jordan is a wonderful cook but I was so hangry, grocery shopping before dinner wouldn't have worked. So, we went and grabbed fast food. Jordan patiently putting up with my grumpy attitude.
My stomach didn't really appreciate it but, at least the hangriness was gone. 😂
Are there ever moments you feel you just need to get away from people? The crowds tend to make me crazy. We are now down to our final day living in Key West. I didn't feel the relaxation of the island. Maybe our next spot will be more relaxing.
I'm not saying I haven't enjoyed Key West...I just wasn't chill here. I tried. I just was irate for some reason. One thing I've noticed is my emotions from the last two years creep up... like a traumatic repeat...
But now that I'm recognizing it, I can release it. It's just annoying because this life is too short to not enjoy every moment. As my brilliant friend Melissa Walsh just messaged all her followers - this too shall pass.
So, I just go with the flow and do my part to keep moving toward my goals. One of which is to enjoy this life.
Yesterday we went snorkeling on the coral reef... the ocean side of the reef had 5 and 6 foot waves so our guides took us on the gulf side.
The waves were still big.
The water rough.
I'm not a strong swimmer.
We went out into the water. Before I knew it, I was in no man's land... struggling to go the right direction against the powerful waves.
At one point, I final got into a rhythm (I am not sure I've ever swam with flippers before so that was another part of the struggle) and got myself calmed down... and a big wave washed over me and right down my snorkel.
We saw a little bit of fish but nothing else. With the state of my being (I was not feeling calm at all) I didn't expect anything would be near me. I also questioned seeing anything with all the people in the water.
I did get the experience of it though. Jordan had fun, he's a strong swimmer. We got separated in the water (likely because he went the direction we were supposed to and I was washed away) so once I knocked my knee, then the flippers, on the reef... and I kept struggling to move where we were supposed to... I made my way back to the boat.
I wasn't sure I'd make it back for a few minutes. I was about to get very annoyed that I was going to have to wave my arms for help. But, I did it, and I wasn't even the first to return. There were almost a dozen people who had given up before me. Then, about 5 minutes later Jordan came back. He didn't see anything either... except a few fish... and he was concerned about me so he came back.
It wasn't the greatest adventure for seeing sea life. But it was still an adventure. If the seas are calmer when Jordan's brother and friend arrive next month - perhaps I'll try again. Maybe.
Now, I have work to do. Still two clients waiting patiently for their paintings so... gotta get to it.
Have a beautiful day! It's going to be a mellow one for us today. Love you all!
Oh... we watched the sunset - so I got my zen. Then, when we returned last night after snorkeling, our RV park was feeding everyone hot dogs. So we went and socialized for a few, ate free dinner, then returned to watch the championship football game. What a game!
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