Days 108 - 109
To live full of joy. Full of love. Full of peace.
That is the goal each of us should have. The fullest, best life possible.
I put the pictures shown above (and message in the picture) on the fridge when I left Idaho in October. I had not felt the joy shown on all our faces for the majority of my adult life. So, I felt that I needed the reminder to live JOYFULLY.
Life has a tendency to make us too serious. Perhaps it's a person in your life, a situation, or maybe your own thoughts. But, if you can live in the energy of gratitude - gratitude for what you see, feel, hear, touch, smell - you can get out of the negative cycles that our brains create.
This life is fleeting. It is ever changing. Whatever your circumstances are in this moment could be changed in an instant.
So, find the joy. Feel the love for all. Find peace in knowing everything will work out exactly the way it is supposed to. That way may not be what we want at first... but it is for the best. In some way, even the greatest pain/loss can create a ripple of blessings for the greatest good of all.
Jordan and I have taken a nice stroll the last few days. Finding different paths to walk and just BE. To feel the sun on our skin, the wind in our hair, the joy of being with someone who cares so deeply... we are living our best life.
Are you? What do you need to do to get there if you aren't?
It might be as simple as feeling gratitude. I see the pictures on my fridge many times a day (the fridge is in direct eyesight of the front door) and every time, my heart smiles. I am eternally grateful for the people I've met and the family I have. Blood relatives and "adopted" I am truly blessed.
As far as the RV life goes, we have one tank that never shows empty so I tried a few things to clean the sensor... it didn't work. Oh well, we know how many showers before it's full.
Yesterday, I tried Key Lime pie FINALLY (I'm not sure I had ever had it before). It actually was not what I ordered. I was craving chocolate - big surprise, I love chocolate - but the piece of cake they brought out was awful and we sent it back. I think that's the first time I have ever sent food - let alone dessert - back. Our waitress brought the Key Lime pie out, on the house. What a lovely surprise! It was absolutely delicious so we left her a hefty tip!
Life is too short to not enjoy the things you love. I miss my family back home but man oh man, I love this life!
Well, I have work to do today. The crummy weather will likely keep us inside all day but that's quite alright, it allows me more time to create.
Much love to you all. Find your joy and cherish EVERY SINGLE MOMENT because it could end in an instant. Stop waiting for everything to be just right and live your best life possible. One day, you'll wake up and realize that everything has always been just right... because it got you to where you are. Full of joy, love and peace.
Patience and peace. And of course, gratitude. Those are key.
I have been blessed. Very blessed and that zen I was looking for has arrived. Day 98 was another mellow day- although, I went on a search for a new cell phone case. Mine stretched... or something... the soft plastic part got too big. Weird right. Well, of course, there's no S8 cases in the Keys. I will have to order it online or wait until we get further north. For now, I must be very cautious with my phone...I won't drop it... I won't, hopefully. 🤦♀️ I often have a dropping problem. I will keep my phone safe.
Day 99 we packed up and moved to our new spot. We were ready to go an hour before we had to leave but didn't want to leave early. You see, checkout time is typically 11am and check in at most places isn't until 1 at the earliest, so we'd already have time to kill since our spot was only a little way up the road.
We arrived at our spot a little after 11 and it was ready for us. Perfect!
But let me back track. We had been staying at Boyd's Key West RV Resort... well, like I said before, it was cramped. The RVs packed in like sardines. Backing in to our spot there would have been a challenge; but, thankfully their staff that helped us had taught trucker school so I did that 90° blind dock with ease and perfection.
Pulling out was much easier. But, before I get there, let me tell you about that place. As you can imagine, having tons of RVs crammed in one place can get noisy. Well, we also happened to be next to the Rec Hall where activities were going all day long (including what looked like jazzercise 😂). So that was often obnoxious. I love almost all music but some songs are annoying... and they played a lot of those. Then, Boyd's is located near the airport AND the naval base was flying jets over us regularly. Some so close to the ground it rumbled our bones (let alone the shaking of the trailer).
So, those things definitely didn't help me find the laid back attitude of island life.
Oh, and the pictures of Boyd's show a beautiful beach (as do our current location). Well, don't be fooled. Boyd's did have a beach, maybe 10ft long 😂 We do not have one here.
But, what we DO have here is quiet. This place is very peaceful and we've met a lot of people already. I backed into our spot (not as tricky as the last but still a tight squeeze) with very little trouble (we tried from one direction, it wasn't working out so went the other way and got in). After we set up, we went for a walk. It is SO quiet and laid back here. We love it.
My patience and peace paid off... yesterday, on day 100 of my travels, I got my first commission project of 2020. I will be taking photos of their adorable fur babies today and see if I can complete the painting before they leave... if not, they're fine with shipping costs but finishing it while they're here would be the ideal way. Less hassle.
That means I must try to complete the paintings currently on my easel. So, I must find that highly productive painter that I was in 2015 and 2016. Wish me luck! 😁
Because I was not stressed, at all yesterday on day 100... and I was truly grateful for what we have here - I think I was finally open to receive. So the universe provided. I wasn't going to go work by the pool yesterday...I was going to stay at home and paint. But, I felt prompted to go. So I went. I sat and wrote in my journal, then I made friends and got business.
Patience, peace and gratitude pay off.
I hope you can find yours! Love you all! TTFN ... I have some painting to do!
Follow up on the zen... oh boy did I have to practice it. The evening started out just fine after I wrote the last blog...we went and watched the sunset before going to get groceries; but, we had to get gas first.
My truck is diesel fueled... there's a station up the road from us. We go there and their pumps aren't working (this is after the attendant says "diesel should work"). Jordan goes inside because we're thinking that maybe if we pay with cash it'll function (their credit card machine was down earlier in the day) but it's no luck. We're on empty... the cashier says (in broken English) that we can fuel up at the station further up the road. Jordan emphasized that we need diesel, she said yes. So off we go.
Nope, no diesel. Definitely not feeling zen. After an hour since we left the sunset, we find a diesel station (yes, that's using Google after that cashier directed us wrong).
At this point, I'm hangry. Not zen at all. We still needed to go grocery shopping before we could eat dinner.
Jordan is a wonderful cook but I was so hangry, grocery shopping before dinner wouldn't have worked. So, we went and grabbed fast food. Jordan patiently putting up with my grumpy attitude.
My stomach didn't really appreciate it but, at least the hangriness was gone. 😂
Are there ever moments you feel you just need to get away from people? The crowds tend to make me crazy. We are now down to our final day living in Key West. I didn't feel the relaxation of the island. Maybe our next spot will be more relaxing.
I'm not saying I haven't enjoyed Key West...I just wasn't chill here. I tried. I just was irate for some reason. One thing I've noticed is my emotions from the last two years creep up... like a traumatic repeat...
But now that I'm recognizing it, I can release it. It's just annoying because this life is too short to not enjoy every moment. As my brilliant friend Melissa Walsh just messaged all her followers - this too shall pass.
So, I just go with the flow and do my part to keep moving toward my goals. One of which is to enjoy this life.
Yesterday we went snorkeling on the coral reef... the ocean side of the reef had 5 and 6 foot waves so our guides took us on the gulf side.
The waves were still big.
The water rough.
I'm not a strong swimmer.
We went out into the water. Before I knew it, I was in no man's land... struggling to go the right direction against the powerful waves.
At one point, I final got into a rhythm (I am not sure I've ever swam with flippers before so that was another part of the struggle) and got myself calmed down... and a big wave washed over me and right down my snorkel.
We saw a little bit of fish but nothing else. With the state of my being (I was not feeling calm at all) I didn't expect anything would be near me. I also questioned seeing anything with all the people in the water.
I did get the experience of it though. Jordan had fun, he's a strong swimmer. We got separated in the water (likely because he went the direction we were supposed to and I was washed away) so once I knocked my knee, then the flippers, on the reef... and I kept struggling to move where we were supposed to... I made my way back to the boat.
I wasn't sure I'd make it back for a few minutes. I was about to get very annoyed that I was going to have to wave my arms for help. But, I did it, and I wasn't even the first to return. There were almost a dozen people who had given up before me. Then, about 5 minutes later Jordan came back. He didn't see anything either... except a few fish... and he was concerned about me so he came back.
It wasn't the greatest adventure for seeing sea life. But it was still an adventure. If the seas are calmer when Jordan's brother and friend arrive next month - perhaps I'll try again. Maybe.
Now, I have work to do. Still two clients waiting patiently for their paintings so... gotta get to it.
Have a beautiful day! It's going to be a mellow one for us today. Love you all!
Oh... we watched the sunset - so I got my zen. Then, when we returned last night after snorkeling, our RV park was feeding everyone hot dogs. So we went and socialized for a few, ate free dinner, then returned to watch the championship football game. What a game!
What is it you've always wanted to do?
Why haven't you done it?
I will no longer make excuses for not living the life I want to live. This past year was an exercise in living.
Christmas came and went, it was different being away from family but...I truly enjoyed my day. It was a day of relaxation. A day of peace. I didn't spend a bunch of money on useless gifts. I didn't stress fixing the perfect Christmas dinner. I didn't stuff myself to the point of discomfort.
Instead we threw the frisbee and read on the beach. We ate delicious BBQ and we sat in the hot tub. Truly peaceful.
Sure, I missed family. But, I made a point to BE truly present all day. And it was bliss.
Every year, my mentors challenge me to choose a word for the year. My word for 2019 was BE. I wanted to just BE in the flow of life. I wanted to BE happy, to BE me, to BE present, to BE alive. I had no idea that would bring an end to a 20 year relationship that was killing me (I couldn't see that until I got away). I wasn't BEing ME for the majority of that relationship because I was afraid of his judgment...always afraid I wouldn't live up to expectations.
Never again will I change who I am to please anyone else. I am full of passion, full of love, full of adventure...I will BE me regardless of what anyone thinks.
Sure, I still catch myself in judgment of me... there's 41 years of that to break. But I will BE in the flow of life, living my truth, and LOVING COMPLETELY. This year was the first year of my life. Beginning with my soul journey in January to The Little Red Cabin in Garden Valley, I began to come back to me. I found my truth. I found my freedom.
Early 2019, I sat with one of my mentors, THE Frank White. He told me of his journey to finding the truth. I asked "what is that truth you found?"
He responded that he can't tell me what the truth is because it is different for each of us.
My truth is not your truth.
It is up to each of us to take the journey into self and discover what we came into this life to learn.
Yes, we have souls we have journeyed with ... but, even they will find a different answer.
So, I hope that 2020 will bring you your true vision (see what I did there 😜). May you discover self. May you discover truth. May you discover how to BE in the now.
Now is all we have. Now, I am going to hit the gym. This body has a lot of places to take me still... so I must keep it healthy.
The travel front has not brought much, but I've had a tremendous amount of time to think. And I am enjoying the now, no matter where I am, or what I'm doing. I am truly grateful for this moment.
Much love to you all! Have a beautiful day... just BE - even for a moment - BE in the NOW.
Sometimes I sit and look at the clouds, trying to see how to paint them in their full beauty. Stormy skies are easier than the dark clouds on brilliant blue sky. We've had cloudy and rainy weather... at least it's still warm-ish! And, we have a gym to work out in, so we're still getting some activity...but not much.
We must be getting used to the heat because 70° now feels chilly. We've been in Fort Myers for almost a month. The past week the weather has kept us inside - I'm getting work done - but it's hard to not miss the beach.
Especially since I finally got us a frisbee. Just in time for crappy weather.
The people here at the park are friendlier since I put up the Christmas lights. It's odd though, not having much social interaction. I do miss my weekly coffee group with fellow Unstoppable Influencers. I don't mind having so much quiet time but I know Jordan must be missing having human interaction (besides me...I'm not the greatest conversationalist). I try, but I'm perfectly ok with silence... most of the time.
It is what it is. We each have our own way of doing things. It is not your job to make anyone else happy - you can't. We each are responsible for ourselves - and nothing else.
Yesterday I read the 16th verse of the Tao Te Ching. Becoming empty is what happened to me over the past year, and I try to stay in this space... but I'm not perfect. Here's that verse...
"Become totally empty. Let your heart be at peace. Amidst the rush of worldly comings and goings, observe how endings become beginnings.
Things flourish, each by each, only to return to the Source... to what is and what is to be.
To return to the root is to find peace. To find peace is to fulfill one's destiny. To fulfill one's destiny is to be constant. To know the constant is called insight. Not knowing this cycle leads to eternal disaster.
Knowing the constant gives perspective. This perspective is impartial. Impartiality is the highest nobility; the highest nobility is Divine.
Being Divine, you will be at one with the Tao. Being at one with the Tao is eternal. This way is everlasting, not endangered by physical death." ~Lao-tzu, Tao Te Ching
We are all connected... can you feel it?
I hope you'll find the peace that's available for each of us. I'm going to finish a painting today, that's the plan anyway. 😁 Hope you all have a wonderful day!
70 days. It's been quite the experience living full time in a travel trailer. There's always something new to learn (for some reason the tanks are not emptying completely... that's the newest "lesson"). This life is wonderful, I wouldn't change a thing.
Today, I used the gym for the first time. It's nice to have equipment readily available... and it's rarely used so it's like having our own personal workout room.
In between painting and grading, we've been to the pool and the beach. I got a little sun, I'm not quite as pale as when we first arrived. 😁
The rain returned after two days of very warm weather. Which means I painted inside today. I'm back to working regularly again. Moving forward with plans to create the best year yet (and finish projects that have been waiting to be released).
I am finally getting my head wrapped around the fact that this really is my life now. Growing up on a farm, living in Idaho my entire life, I never imagined I'd be living wherever I park. I am so blessed to have this opportunity! And blessed to be able to stay connected... no matter where I am.
Through my business, in meetings and conversations, it keeps coming up that people are so overwhelmed right now... trying to make decisions, trying to come up with answers.
Trying. Trying. Trying. Searching for what's next instead of relaxing into the flow of what is.
Over and over again friends have said this. But they aren't doing anything to change it. Maybe because it is what they're used to. Because "being busy" - especially during the holidays - is what everyone is used to. But it doesn't have to be that way.
Are you enjoying the moment, or are you worried about the next thing you must do?
I ask you to take time to just BE. it's worth every minute, I promise. All the things will still be there. Your time with loved ones is what's most important. Your time to take care of yourself - do something you love. Go play in the rain, jump in a puddle, laugh, play, LIVE. Take the time to enjoy the company.
Take the time to BE. There's magic in the stillness.
Day 62 - 66
This week, I celebrated another birthday. We watched the sunset and had dinner on the beach one night, walked in the moonlight to end my actual birth day, and went to watch a up and coming band play the next day.
I painted, I graded, I organized, I got my health insurance figured out (yippee)... it was a week full of activities - the mundane and the exciting - in paradise.
This week made me realize how truly blessed this life is. I am blessed to share space with an amazing human. I am blessed to be working. I am blessed to have all my friends and family. I was blessed with all the kind birthday messages. I am blessed with talents that I can't fully understand.
I am truly grateful for the abundance I have in my life and am excited for more to come.
This will be my first Christmas away from my daughter, we shall see how I'm feeling as Christmas rolls through. Hopefully the weather will be nice here so we can spend Christmas day on the beach. That would be a lovely distraction.
It's been raining here off and on lately. It was definitely monsoon worthy on Thursday night, after the concert. We ran out of the club, spun around and got thoroughly soaked in the rain. It's a warm rain. It's quite nice.
When was the last time you enjoyed the feeling of rain hitting your skin?
Or really enjoyed the warmth of the sun?
It's the little things that can bring the greatest joy... if you'll let them.
There's more to life than an aquisition of things. So much more beyond the material. So much beyond what can be seen, or tasted, or smelled, or touched. So much more.
It's time to appreciate what you already have and get into the flow of the wonderful things that are in store.
Not sure who needed that message today... but there it is. Much love and light to you all!
I had a dream that I was traveling all over the world. In less than 6 months, I sold almost everything I own...bought a Toy Hauler (the "garage" is my art studio) and am now living wherever, whenever...just me, my art, and my cats.