October 25th, 2019

Day 15 - I realized I should number these...

I am so grateful. This life is AMAZING. Last night, I made it to the Smoky Mountains of North Carolina. It's beautiful here. The drive was lovely. There are SO MANY trees.

I've now been in 13 states (there's that 13 again - check out the post from a few days ago). I'm staying here for a little while though... North Carolina, that is. I'll be in the mountains for a week, or two, then I'm heading to the ocean. Which means I will have gone all the way from the Pacific (San Francisco) to the Atlantic in a little over two months (granted, I stayed anchored in Idaho the majority of September). I certainly didn't imagine I'd be HERE.

13 signifies the end of something to make place for new beginnings (side note, I told my ex I couldn't live with him anymore, on the 13th... there were more endings and beginnings on the 13th of every month since April... so many things...). We can't see beyond what's right in front of us, so often we only see the troubles... the endings... the pain. BUT, even though it looks like the road is ending (there's only darkness beyond the reach of my headlights) I know there's something over the hill, something around the corner. There's MORE beyond what you currently see.

A friend reached out, one of their teenage relatives tried to end their life. I'm grateful, as is their family, that it was unsuccessful. I am so blessed that, while I was destructive as a teen, I did not try anything. I found my escape in alcohol instead of death. My friend's relative, who is SO loved by their family, thought that their exit from this existence would make everyone else's life easier. I felt that same thing, off and on, for almost 41 years.

FORTY YEARS feeling like I wasn't good enough. That everyone would be better off without me.

What changed?

I let go of society's expectations. I connected with MY truth instead of the "truth" that was taught to me. A wise friend, Frank White, and I were having coffee... it may have been this same time last year (he's a instrumental mentor in my healing and my business attitudes...look him up online). Anyway, after hearing about his spiritual journey I asked him, "what is the truth." Big question. But he said he had found "the truth."

SOOO I wanted to know. What is this truth you speak of Frank?

Well, as I've come to discover (of course it's what he said as well)...
We each have our own truth.
It isn't until you connect with, and live in, your personal truth that you'll find the joy, love, peace and LIFE that you've always dreamed of. Some people call it your purpose. Your soul mission. We humans have so many words for the same thing.

Connect to find your truth. Meditate. Read. Explore.

Connect with others who can guide you.

But more importantly, connect with the Divine...The Universe...The angels... The light team...The spiritual realm...Your highest self...God...(there's all those human words again... it doesn't matter which one you use). Connect with your SOUL.

The answers are there. The joy is there. The guidance IS THERE! Everything you need is already there! You just have to strip away the layers of bullshit that this human existence puts on us... then you'll find your truth.

All you have to do is open up and allow. Ask for assistance, then LISTEN and WATCH for the signs. It's truly magical how everything - the entire Universe - wants to give you what you want. So, keep your thoughts positive... what you think about is what you get.

"What you want, wants you." ~Joseph Clough THAT is a universal truth. Everything is energy so what you're thinking about is the energy you're releasing. Keep those thoughts elevated and your life will elevate.

OH... some fun RV life yesterday...
I have always wanted to go to Versailles France, London, Paris... WELL, I was driving down the interstate and I saw a sign for Versailles, Kentucky. Of course I had to drive through it. I also went through London yesterday (missed Paris though). Thanks for that fun Kentucky!

Then, I FINALLY reach the town I'm staying in. My GPS has me cross the river... then says "in 800 feet, your destination is on the left"
... uh ACROSS the RIVER!
So I drive further up thinking "maybe there's another bridge" and, end up getting to a one lane mountain road. Thankfully I had just passed a wide space. Backed up (yeah... no backup camera either) and after a 6 point - or so - turn I was headed back to the bridge, to the correct location. Oooooh.... more guidance. Trust your instincts (when my GPS told me to cross that bridge I thought "really, there's no sign, this doesn't feel right"). You already KNOW so trust it! The earthly things will often steer you wrong.

Love you all! I'm going to go get some exercise. Have a beautiful day!