November 08th, 2019

Day 29

Today I got to tour the home of a woman so full of love. As soon as we saw one another, it was a giant hug... and many followed. We laughed, a few tears were shed, but oh my goodness... she's so full strength.

You see, this was the home of Ellis's mom. Ellis is part of my Words Matter Military edition. He lost his battle against suicide at 24 years old.

We talked for a few hours. We shared thoughts on how to help people who are struggling. There has to be a change in society. A change in the way we view life. That is the only thing that is going to help more than the ones we impact directly.

This lifetime is only one of many that your soul has ventured on. We each have a mission, and we have things we must heal. But, sometimes we do not remember that in time. And the pain of this existence is too much to bear. It happens most in the one's who are altruistic - wanting to make everyone else happy.

They seem to forget about their own happiness. And then that's when the darkness wins. That's when the voices of "you'll never get it. You'll never be good enough. Everyone is better off without you. You are better off if you leave."

But the truth is... if you exit before you've healed what you came into this life to heal - you'll get the same shit show all over again.

I certainly don't want that. That's where my shift happened, in that realization and in the connection to my higher self.

That is the shift that must happen. A shift away from an existence as a human that needs an external force to save you, because you're broken - you're wrong - that shame and blame is killing people. An average of over 129 people per day. And those are just the United States statistics. Rates are rising.

There has to be a change. Everything you need is already inside you.

This life can be difficult and painful - unless you realize that the pain is there to help you heal.

The pain is HELPING you. It isn't meant to put you in a state of victimhood. It's meant to show you something. Show you a piece of your soul that you came here to heal. Will you listen? Or will you listen to the doom and gloom of society?

It's time for change.

I'm delivering another portrait today. I must run and get some things done. But first...

Here's Ellis's story...

A free spirit who was wise beyond his years, Ellis Weems called himself “The Last Gentleman”. He had an uncanny ability to make everyone smile and loved to make other people laugh. He was also very smart, always looking at how things worked. His mom took him to a circus when he was 5 years old. Unlike other children, instead of admiring the acts, Ellis wanted to know what was going on with all the wires in the back...much more interested in how they made it all work. He also loved to eat. His mom cooked every day, he preferred her cooking to eating out, and he at A LOT which meant a large grocery bill. He never wasted food, and needed the fuel for his avid love of skateboarding. He also loved to travel so the military was a good fit. Unfortunately, Ellis lost his battle on July 15, 2016 at the age of 24.
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#youmatter If you are struggling, PLEASE reach out for help. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255
You are so loved.

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Love you all!