November 03rd, 2019

Day 24

Embracing The Void... and WHY.

These two things filled my mind. I was reading a friend's post and it got me thinking about the question: WHY?

I remember the why phase. If you're a parent, or have spent time around young children, you know what I'm talking about. EVERY few minutes, my daughter asked why. Why this? Why that? To be honest, this phase drove me crazy. That's why you hear parents say "because I said so." They've lost the patience for the constant WHY?!

But, go deep with me for a moment...what if...JUST WHAT IF this phase is actually the assimilation into human existence. The point in life where a child starts to lose touch with their soul... or is it the soul trying to align with the human existence.

All I know is that this is a very important phase in how we each view reality. How our parents handled our "why's" forms our perception of what is acceptable, what is right, what is normal to society.

Those societal norms are cages. They'll keep you contained, they might keep you safe, but they'll also keep you miserable. You might not be miserable at first... but you'll start to feel that pull toward the "something more."

I'll never forget how I felt when my ex first said, "I'm almost 50 and I can't help but think 'is this all there is to life'." It was the proof I needed, the veil lifted, and I saw the bars of my cage so very clear. I expanded, I broke free. From the last time I saw him, he's still confined. Why? Why do people choose to stay confined?

Because, it feels safer to be mediocre. It's safer to stay in the shadows. As soon as you step into the light... you open yourself up to possible ridicule. So why would you want that?

Stepping out of the norm - out of social expectations - and into your purpose (into your DREAMS) is freedom. Freedom from the judgement. Freedom from the mediocrity of a expectations. Freedom from the darkness.

That being said, once you make the leap and you connect fully to YOUR truth, there will be times you feel like the darkness has returned. But this space is different, it's the Void. It's where possibility lies. Answers can be found. You can fall in love with-or easily say goodbye to- someone you've grown out of, IF you'll embrace the Void. It's a magical place. It's where your soul, your higher self - the Divine, God, Gaia, the Universe ... all that is - can speak most clearly.

My friend, Melissa Walsh, once equated it to a radio. She said, "the Void is the static in between stations." You can't fight it. It's going to come. It's always there. You just keep listening and take a step, then another, then another (turning the dial) until the song (your answer) becomes clearer and clearer.

The only problem lies when we fight the Void instead of accepting it as it is - a space to rest, rejuvenate, heal and release to make space for the greatness that's coming. Sometimes, things (people and relationships, feelings, thoughts, material possessions, jobs, etc.) that no longer serve us fall away in the Void...like a station losing its frequency.

I realized today I've been fighting the Void for about a week. Acceptance of this "quiet head space" and melancholy attitude (which got especially strong today... making me quite cranky because I thought "what the hell, I'm in an adventure of a lifetime- what's wrong with you") has now brought me peace.

Why?

Because I know that magic is waiting on the other side. The music is playing and I'm ready to dance!

Next time you hear the question "why" before you answer - especially if it's a child asking - ask yourself "is my answer going to allow them to expand... or is it going to add another bar to their cage?"
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Sometimes things just pour out. ☝️ That is what just happened.

Day 24 I went into Asheville's River Arts District. By the time most of you see this post, I will have already moved on from this town headed to warmer weather. In each of these places, I keep thinking "I should be connecting with people...I should go see all the sights, afterall... that's how my business will grow" (there's the first error...SHOULD is an expectation usually from society's beliefs). So I keep going out but then I just want to get away from the crowds - even a few strangers have been a crowd. My senses are very sensitive right now. The tourist shops (which I typically enjoy looking at all the trinkets, shirts and funny things these places have) are sensory overload. Especially if they are cluttered AND noisy AND smell funny. I actually opened the door to a few places, saw the "mess" and said NOPE. Didn't even cross the threshold.

The arts district in Asheville was cool. Tons of artist studios and there were a few I really liked. It just made me want to go home and paint though.

Downtown was insane. People everywhere. EVERY.WHERE. I tried to go, but ended up driving right through. NOPE. Then, of course I'm annoyed with myself thinking "are you really going to go to all these cool places and NOT fully explore them? " (This was before tonight's Void acceptance.) I ate dinner, got home, fell asleep.

It was after 1 (so start of day 25) when I realized this attitude and "funk" is the fight against the Void. Since that realization, all this has poured out and I know now not to "SHOULD" on myself. Just do what I feel like doing. Duh. Which right now, I feel like painting.

So, there may - or may not - be anything to blog about once I get to my next location. I'll be painting...I know that much!

I love you all (although there are summe people I don't like who will read this 🤣). But we are all connected and love is the key. Accept the Void... love yourself through it...there's an awesome song playing on the other side and when we get there, WE WILL DANCE!